Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Looking to the Hills

I'm outta here, heading to the hills of Tennessee for the annual Zoe "Look to the HIlls" Conference. I'm so excited! I look forward to this all year... I pray about it constantly!

I know many of you bloggers will be there, too. Can't wait to meet you! If you're not able to go this year, please pray for all of us. And, start planning to go with us next year!

I'll write all about it next week....

Blessings to you all!

Lord, thank you for Zoe and for the refreshing that it brings! Bless this conference and all the hearts that will be there. Send your Spirit in a new and fresh way! Amen.

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Countdown to Zoe

It's almost time for the annual Zoe Look to the Hills conference... just one more day until we leave. I'm so excited about Zoe this year for a number of reasons.

While this will be my wife and I's fifth conference, it will be our FIRST EVER time to attend with our church group. After 10 years of trying to effect change at our church, we finally have found a new church home! At our new church we are both on the praise team and it has been such a wonderful blessing! We are so excited about going this year as part of a group!

Another reason I'm exceptionally excited about this year is that my Mom and Dad will be attending for the first time. My father was recently named an elder at his home congregation in Alabama, and they are cautiously exploring the Zoe conference. They have had people at the conference before and they've really enjoyed it. I'm so excited to share this wonderfully rich worship experience with my Mom and Dad-- they are the planters of the word in my heart.

The third and final reason I'm so excited about this year is that my wife will be joining me for the WHOLE program! In year's past, she has attended mainly the key-note speakers and worship times, but has not been able to attend all of the sessions. This year, we have enrolled our children in the Zoe Kids program, so she will be FREE to be there with me through the whole thing.

I don't know if I can wait until Thursday... I'm just bubbling over with excitement and anticipation!

Please keep my group, my parents, and my wife and I in your prayers as we all travel and as we experience this awesome conference. My prayer is that God will work through each of us and will create stronger, braver, and more encouraged hearts for his service back in Illinois.

Father, thank you for the ministry of Zoe. Please be with Brandon, the Zoe Group singers, all of the conference planners, speakers and volunteers. Grant safe travel to all who come. Bless us all with tender and open hearts. Re-new my spirit. Bless my time with my Mom and Dad. Bless my experience with my group. Use this weekend to strengthen my relationship with my wife. Amen.

Monday, September 27, 2004

Learning to Trust

Why is it so hard to truly trust in the Lord?

He is my creator. He knows every hair on my head. He sent His son to die for me. He's prepared a mansion for me. He loves me. He forgives me. He knows my name. He wants me for eternity.

He obviously is trustworthy. He obviously has my best interest at heart.

But yet, somewhere in the back of my mind this little shred of doubt creeps in...
What if He doesn't work this situation out the way I want Him to? What if I'm supposed to be doing something different in this situation? What if I just can't sense His direction? What if I get in the way of His will for me? What if I haven't prayed enough?

And then I remember... "Be still and know that I am God."

Thank you Lord for your love and your leadership in my life. Help me to learn to surrender in every way to your will for my life. Thank you for being my rock. Help me to love others the way you love me. Help me to forgive the way you forgive me. Amen.

Thursday, September 23, 2004

Autumn

Autumn---I even love the word (please... don't call it the "f" word).

As I look out the windows across the back of my house, I see the woods waiting. They know that yesterday at noon it officially became Autumn, although they are holding on to that last bit of summer green. The trees along the riverbanks, the ones I see out my office window, gave up weeks ago. Perhaps they were as excited about the coming of Autumn as I was.

If I could make it so, I would have 360 days of Autumn... I'd allow the other three seasons to argue over the remaining five days. To me, the world is just at its best during this season. A sort of "golden hour" glow is cast across everything. A candle light dinner for all of nature.

Leaves in every hue of yellow, orange, red, and purple. Mums, apples, cider, hay rides, hot chocolate. We all break out our favorite sweaters or turtle necks. Pumpkins and other gourds take their proud places on our porches. Even high school football games seem more appealing in Autumn.

It's a time to take the longer route home. The back roads, for three or four weeks anyway, are the preferred path. For once, slowing down is worthwhile. Under the glowing canopy of color I delight in my God's creativity.

Thank you Lord for the seasons... especially Autumn. I delight in your creativity and marvel at your sense of color. Thank you for setting my heart so free in this season. Thank you for loving me in all seasons. Amen.

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Lost in Worship

I was in Texas this weekend visiting with family. We had a wonderful time and I really enjoyed having tickle fights and playing Star Wars with my nephews. Man, am I out of shape!

The highlight of my trip came on Sunday when I was able to worship at Oak Hills. I don't know if it was because I was there all by myself, or if the spirit was just really evident that day, but I spent the entire worship weeping. From the very first song, I was just so touched and moved. Every word of every song, and every word of every prayer, and every word of every comment seemed to be just for me. Songs I had sang hundreds of times before were brand new with new meaning. It was incredible. I found myself lost in worship.

Is this what worship is supposed to be like all the time?

Then came time for Max's sermon. He must have gotten advance notice that I was coming that Sunday, because his sermon was all about me!! I'm not kidding... the very big struggle in my life that I was experiencing at that moment and that weekend, was the topic of his sermon. He has such an incredible gift to make scripture seem so simple and practical. It was amazing!

Thank you Lord for Oak HIlls. Thank you for their boldness. Thank you for your Spirit which moved me so mightily Sunday. May I be lost in worship every moment of every day! Amen.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Ivan, Florida and Jonah

If I lived in Florida right now-- which I don't, but I used to-- I would probably be waiving my arms and hollering for everyone to throw me off the ship.

"It's all my fault! I'm the guilty one! God's punishing me! Throw me over the state line into Alabama and all these hurricanes will go away!"

Hey, it worked for Jonah, right? The minute they threw him overboard the storms stopped.

But it doesn't really work like that. First of all, God is not looking for ways to punish us. No, He's looking for ways to draw us closer to HIm so that He can share his love for us. Second of all, I don't need to feel guilty for my sin, He's created a way to get rid of it all so that neither He nor I have to see it-- through the blood of his son, Jesus Christ.

I'm so glad I don't have to take the burden of the world on my shoulders-- and certainly know that I am not to blame for Ivan!

How about you? Been blaming yourself for anything lately?

Thank you Lord for your mercy and your grace! Thank you for your son's love and sacrifice and for his blood which washes me clean continuously! Amen.

Friday, September 10, 2004

Weekends

Well, it's been an incredibly long week-- interesting statement since this has actually been a short week, with Monday being a holiday. Nevertheless, it's been a long week.

Some really great things happened this week for which I am extremely grateful:
- We spent a very memorable Labor Day with our friends, creating memories for a life time.
- I got to take my daughter to school twice! (That father/daughter time is wonderful, but becoming more rare)
- We started our Children's Christmas musical for our church-- a lifetime first for our family!
- I've drawn closer to several of my Christian brothers.
- My business was recognized for it's excellence and contribution in a very public and high profile way.

However, I'm really looking forward to this weekend. Hopefully, it will be a quiet and simple weekend spent reconnecting with my family and indulging in some much needed rest.

I love that our God-- the creator of the universe-- is also the giver of rest and realizes the importance of quiet time and meditation. I intend to be God-like this weekend and rest, just like He did.

How about you?

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Friends

God provides for us in many ways. After this long Labor Day weekend, I am especially mindful of how God has provided for me and my family with a wonderful circle of Christian friends. People who I know love me unconditionally and would do anything for me. What a blessing!

Our very close group of friends spent the entire weekend together-- brought together around a family who recently moved away and who came "home" for the long weekend. Our families ate almost every meal together and spent nearly every waking hour laughing, crying, sharing stories, reminiscing, fishing, shopping, praying, and praising. I have never seen so much home made ice cream in my life!

Friendship, true friendship, is a very precious commodity. Friendships based upon a commonality of Christ-centeredness are even more rare and precious. I count my friends as one of my most lavish blessings from God.

Our friends who moved away need lots of love, prayers and support. The husband is without a job right now (the reason for the move) and they are struggling with the adjustments that go along with that. I have watched how our group has responded to their needs (like brining them home for the weekend and paying for everything for them) and I have this measure of peace knowing they would do the exact same thing for me.

Thank you God for providing me with such wonderful friends. Help me to never take their love and caring for granted. Help me to be as good a friend to them as they have been for me. Help us to reach out to those out there who do not have this same blessing and to touch them with the over-abundance of love we have. Amen.

Friday, September 03, 2004

One Life at a Time

My Dad called me this morning with a new chapter to an amazing story of how God is working through him to minister to a young man's life-- it's a wonderful and powerful reminder of how God works in all our lives in such amazing ways-- if we will allow Him to.

My Dad, who retired from teaching middle school history and coaching 7th & 8th grade basketball last year, has a particularly soft spot in his heart for Billy. This past June, Billy graduated from high school and my father was there to cheer him on. You see, Billy was one of my dad's students and players in 7th and 8th grade and both his life and my dad's have never been the same since. It all started when my dad and mom bought Billy his first pair of basketball shoes, something his single-parent mom could never afford to do. Billy was forever indebted to my dad, and my dad's heart was forever captivated by Billy.

Since those first pair of new shoes, my dad and Billy have gone through many experiences together. When Billy's house burnt to the ground, my mom and dad were there to take Billy, his younger sister and mom shopping to buy new clothes and household items. My parents church donated money and even bought clothing and toys for the family as well. When Billy began to struggle academically, my father devoted several hours each week to tutoring him so that he could stay academically eligible for his sports activities. Every year when Billy started a new school year, my dad was there to make sure Billy had new clothes and school supplies. There were many incidences when Billy's mom would show up at my parent's house needing grocery money or her electric bill to be paid-- my parents always found a way to help, even when there were times it meant they did without.

At the end of his high school career, Billy began to distance himself from my dad... and at times even seemed ungrateful for his help and sacrifice. But my father did not waiver in his support. For graduation, my dad bought Billy an X-Box game system and was at the ceremony to see him walk across the stage to receive the diploma he had spent so many hours helping him attain.

Unfortunately, Billy had made some poor decisions in his senior year and his grades were not what they should have been. Much to my dad's disappointment, Billy gave up his dreams of going to college and took a job at a local pizza parlor and spent the summer running with the wrong crowd. When I visited my parents this summer my dad was resigned to the fact that his relationship with Billy was over and his hopes and dreams of Billy going to college were abandoned. I don't know that I've ever seen my dad so wounded and deflated.

Well, God had a different plan that Billy, my dad nor anyone else knew about or could see.

Last Thursday, a small, private college called and offered Billy a spot on their football team and a full scholarship-- with one catch-- Billy had to accept their offer on the spot and be at the school to register (the school had actually started that Wednesday, so he was a week late) for classes Monday morning. Billy called my dad (whom he still calls "Coach") and asked if he could pick him up and drive him to college-- the school is 6 hours away. You can imagine my dad's elation.

When my parents picked Billy up Saturday to leave for college, he had basically nothing-- a small bag with a few clothes. Once again, my parents' church family came to the rescue and gave them money to take Billy shopping for new clothes and all the things a college freshman needs to live away from home.

Of course Billy had never been more than 40 miles away from home, so when he left, his Mom and sister were quite distraught. And Billy was in for the adventure of his life... he's never seen snow, never experienced fall and never seen mountains... he's never been away from home let alone lived away from home.

My dad called to ask me to keep Billy in my prayers and to send him a card of encouragement. He also asked that I send him $5 dollars a month (he's asked four others to do the same) so that he will always have a little spending money and a feeling of home while he's away. If for no other reason than to honor my father, I will gladly accept the small task of encouraging Billy.

What a wonderful story of how God can use us for His purposes, one life at a time! I wonder how many "Billys" there are out there? And I'm convicted of how much God can do with ten minutes of my time and $5 dollars of my money.

Lord, bless Billy with an amazing first year of college! Thank you for the awesome witness and servant heart of my father. Continue to put "Billys" into his life and into mine. Continue to use us to reach this world one life at a time! Amen.